Day 13 – I mentioned this in the last post, but I wanted to say how it went.
I went to PopChoir, and it was great! We sang pop songs, I wasn’t the only newbie, and I laughed out loud. I went alone, I was scared, nervous about doing it, but looking forward to having a good sing! Afterwards I wondered why I had worried about doing something that I wanted to do. A friend said to me recently that anxiety is just excitement without the breath – I found that helpful!
Day 14 – if we are friends on FB you may have heard about this already. I went with my pal Jenny to see Brene Brown speak about Courage at the school of life. I love her work. If you have seen her TED talks, you can watch them here:
She was great in real life of course, humorous, whole-hearted and real! I felt inspired by her. We waited to meet her at the end and she signed our books. I also told her about my #30daysoffearlessliving and the scary thing for that day was to actually talk to her! She fist-bumped me! I love her!!
Day 15 – Bit the bullet and finally contacted a renovator to come and look at the flat – we have so much that needs doing I don’t even know where he will start. Found myself worrying about whether I should spring clean the flat before he comes around next week. But I refuse to engage with this type of “mental chatter” – Cleaning is not for me!
Day 16 – today. Asking for money is difficult. Asking for money that you are owed for work you have already done – difficult. I don’t know what the fear was about this when it first had to be done: it seems like such a reasonable thing to ask for doesn’t it? I have been used to taking home a salary paid straight into my bank account every month without question. To negotiate a rate, send an invoice and then chase up late payments, this is new and scary. But it gets easier I’m finding. Change is tough sometimes!